The First Post in Months
Stepping Into the Light!
In the past months, life’s been filled to the brim with work and an angel that have brought me a lease of life. Travelling across continents, I’ve spent the last 6 months or so on the road more than I’ve ever been in years. Living out of a suitcase and in hotel rooms is not how I had envisioned my life this year. But one thing that is constant is change I guess and why not embrace it.
At the beginning of this year, my divorce got finalised and right now selling the flat would mean all ties between my ex-wife and me will be severed. As bitter as the day I told her it was over, she’s still lost in the world where I am the villain and she bore no blame. Even the buyer of my flat could sense the animosity that she had shown during our short appointment.
Sitting with the buyer and sipping tea, we spoke of life in general and somehow I feel a certain affinity with a man almost double my age. An elderly gentlemen who looked younger than his actual age had probably been able to do so by leading an active lifestyle.
He too spoke of finding a life partner and shared with me his own experience of marrying at age 40, although this is not something that I am totally against it is more the fear of rushing into things that fear me.
Who is the right one? Formerly I had the view that a couple had a lifetime to sort out differences but today I have a different view, fundamentals must be there or else a rock cannot turn into gold no matter how much we may wish upon our wishing star.
Even when you feel that you have found the right one, the right one may not deem you to be so. But one thing I have learnt is to live life one day at a time no matter how many days you have left. I live life with a passion in my work and private life, change no matter how minute starts very much with our own hands. No matter how experiences cloud our judgement, we should look objectively and this is what Cognitive Behavioral Therapy has enlightened me.
Right now I am wishing upon my star that my angel will soon be in my arms and then we’ll start building something special for the rest of our lives.
Recently I penned the following for her: -
“If you were me, you would love you too truly, wholeheartedly and eternally”
Its been a long time since I’ve got the inspiration and I guess she has brought it back 
. This is perhaps the first smiley in my posts but I guess this is a good start.
